Someone special to me .....

 One week ago, I received the notice that one of my close friends had passed away on Thursday, August 21st. I was very surprised, and even though it was 7 days ago and her sister has already talked to me about it, I still can't assimilate it. He was someone really optimistic, and he used to treat everyone kindly, which makes his death highly impressive to me.

 A few days before I received the notice, I wanted to send him a message, but I thought that I was going to bother him because, after all, he was already studying a career. So I was left with that little thorn and therefore many things to say to him.

I would have liked to tell him that he wasn't alone and that no matter how complicated things seemed, there is always a way out, and I'm sure he had many friends who were willing to find that solution because he once helped us find it. Perhaps if I had spoken to him, I could have unconsciously encouraged him, even a little bit.

As Alan was, he left me with the feeling that deep inside he would have liked to receive a message from friends he had here, even though he had many there. I hoped he enjoyed his life even though that was different at the end. Telling him that I missed him and loved him very much is something I will no longer be able to say, but it is something I will keep in my heart forever.